Toil in silence

You're unprepared, who never lost
a treasure kept, just tears
who never hungered only to find
a famine through the years

You who never wearily toiled
with only riches to pave your road
will find in the sunset of your years
a heartless, heavy load

How many griefs to overcome
before you find your way
ho many sorrows to fill you heart
how many prayers to pray

And how many more scars
to create part by part
enough hurts to make whole
your pain shuttered heart

Don't ask
Don't ask
It's a life long task

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Confusion

Confusion,
it shows with age..
Confusion,
I'm disengaged...
Confusion,
my mental rampage...
Confusion,
a daily disadvantage...
Confusion,
a struggle with language...
Confusion,
from memory damage...

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Memory's Affixation

In my youth I lived in castles of imagination,
exploring its chambers, roaming its halls,
a life of girlish dreams and fascinations...
where knights of honor would brawl...
all to fade with memory's affixation...

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His Car

It was nearly 3:00 am when the police brought Pops home.  He'd been out looking for his car.  We'd given it away two years ago.

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The roses

My father was a truck driver until he hurt his back and had to learn to walk again.  That's when the roses came into our lives.

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Decaying connections

These images fading with time,
these pictures in my mind,
they're like old photographs,
decaying connections to my past...

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Just a long decline

There is no finish line,
just a long decline,
lost memories, once mine

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Just a fading memory

These years of decline,
when thoughts slip the mind...
What's left of your life story,
is just a fading memory...

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The Autumn Leaves

The Autumn leaves have fallen,
and all blown away,
my oranges and yellows,
like my days of yesterday...
now barren meadows.

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Trip of nostalgia

You've loved me in pity
when I asked for understanding.
My love for you was limitless
in its response...I consoled
your sorrows...fed your
hunger...dried your tears...
listened to your troubles...
and now you fill my mind
still...for you are my first
and only love...and I try
to recapture and relive all
the wonderful times with you.
...it's a trip in nostalgia...

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Our long goodbye

Our long goodbye,
started before you died,
when you didn't know who I was,
on that day I broke down and cried...

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Aging and failing

Sentences with no endings,
because I forgot what I was saying,
no lucidity, just pretending,
memory lapses, aging and failing...

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The gravity of aging

Gravity has challenged my assets,
once a youthful lover's banquet...

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We reached for the sky

We had Bob Dylan on the radio,
we were the post Daddy-O...
Rebellious and high,
we reached for the sky...
As crazy as it seems,
we never lived up to our dreams...

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A tangled impossibility

Moments I'm unsure of,
are they memories?
Tales of loss and love,
dreams and possibilities,
these gifts from above...
now a tangled impossibility.

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That's when I knew

"Who are you?"

"I'm your daughter."

"No, you're not!"

"Yes, I am, Pops!"

That's when I knew my father was gone....

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They'll be gone forever

Memories float by,
like leaves in a river,
sometimes I cry,
knowing they'll be gone forever

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Losing moments

Fixed in time
the things in my mind
some so vivid
memories I rewind
others fading and conflicted
losing moments, so unkind

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I never got to say goodbye

I never got to say goodbye,
it was too late for that,
you'd forgotten who I was.

It was a sudden shock,
realizing you were gone,
as I looked into your eyes.

You were lost in failing memory,
here, but mostly gone...
and this is how I remember you.

In passing I hope you find your way,
and that we'll reunite one day....
your loving daughter....

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