Whole Again

My goodbye is near
gone the confusion
gone the endless fear
soon the conclusion
seventy aught years
ended in seclusion
all lost and forgotten
free from delusion
whole and unbroken
no more my dear

0200022018

Guilty Goodbyes

You weren't there
but I visited anyway
just a shell, silent
you sat and stared
aged stone, cold eyes
once my father
now just a shell
you'd gone deep
beyond all reach
these visits now
my guilty goodbyes

02001217

My Transition

Lost inside waiting
silent, and forgetting
the clock winds down
memories long gone
grown empty now
bring on my transition

01121996

Ready to go

I'm tired
I've grown old
faced my fears
over the years
shed many tears
laughs too
made memories
to lose with time
stories once told
are mysteries
the faces I behold
just strangers
sadly, I'm ready to go

02001017

Morning Dew

This can't be the end
oh, I've so much to do
dreams still on the shelf
love letters left to send
another morning dew
let me not lose myself
can't I be me again?

02000917

Company

Good company, together
we share experiences,
that transform today,
making it a memory....
we'll call it a ceremony,
or a tradition to share,
year after year,
until one by one,
we each depart,
or forget the company
we kept today...

05091996

Empty Shell

I'm an empty shell
tossed about the shore
from the sea of memory
where I once lived
and dreamed of more
than days to fade away
with no stories left to tell

12140917

Pink Hair

Shocking pink hair
pairs so well with
green eyeshadow
and silly hats
and April Fools
bring back my youth
days before despair
and forgetfulness
when I was still... me

02151996

Selfless

The road to emptiness
is a long way from home
lost in its vastness
alone one just roams
confused and speechless
everyone unknown
slowly growing selfless....

02000817

Become the whole

You never really grow up....
no matter how old you are....
until you're willing to accept
responsibility for someone else's
happiness....
between a loving couple
real intimacy is possible only
when you've both reach this
level of maturity....
when the two parts
become the whole....

071977-04

Gone Blank

My nightmare
my truth now
a blank stare
empty inside
unploughed
memories
subside....
like me

12140817

Companionship

No one grows too old to need
physical closeness--
a loving pat, a comforting hand
sexual desire continues, I guess....
but the need for companionship
is even greater....

071977-03

All that I was

My path once paved with words
is erased with each passing day
leaving only one destination
that will have no memory of me
no mention of all that I was

05011996

In Slipping

Few are the days ahead...
Many are the forgotten,
all the more left behind...
Love my solace, in quiet,
I'm sustained in slipping

0200072117

Without Time

We shared many memories in celebration of life. My private moments reflective of our time, passing, and so came the forgetting, past, gone, present too. No future to record. Forgotten before it happens. I sit now, oblivious.... without time, and nothing to share.

03171998

Aging Silence

True presence
a rare occurrence
that visits me
enfolding enlightenment
filled with answers
that I still ponder
in aging silence

06111996

Never Alone

I am blessed to know God, with Him my heart is at peace. Lead me to life's purpose, make the road visible, guide me in my journey. We are never alone with God, even in our fading days of aging solitude, He's always there with us.

04301998

Our Reunion

My words and deeds are coming to an end. A past folded up and put away. This my pause, before passing into other realms, new explorations, old faces waiting for our reunion.

12100816

Joys and Sins

I'm a magnet
drawing all in
building slowly
a personal universe
a symphony
finding purpose
a life of memories
that I'll forget
all my joys and sins

06041996

You can learn

We must not get discouraged when we plod along instead of advancing at a gallop for each step forward is progress and is at the pace it was meant to be for our own learning.

In youth, it sometimes seems easier, but retention is harder to attain, at times, when we age, but it is not impossible. It is important to keep the mind active and engaged. It is always easier to learn that which we love, but it is necessary to learn the basic tools before we move on.

Embrace them as a means to an end. At times our teachers too may be deficient and leave us to struggle much on our own. Know we can always seek and be granted Divine assistance.

Do not think the Lord does not understand for He is in the spirit of all things in existence. All things, including the human ideas that also create, are gifts from God. Nothing exists without His knowledge.

What we can accomplish is but a speck in the universe compared to Divine creation. Offer up your struggle to His glory and He will help you carry the load.

There is something too to learn in the learning. About ourselves, our dedication, our feeling of accomplishment, as we begin to understand a new thing.

When we can share it with others and also teach, we are giving back that which was given to us. Thus learning is an endless cycle. To have the gift of a new thing to accomplish in our life gives purpose to our days.

If we grasp just one concept we have reason to be grateful for that wee bit of knowledge that we didn't possess before. We have the ability to continue that road each day and to embrace it for expanding our horizons. Believe you can succeed and you will. For what we believe is what we receive.

08251999