Whole Again

My goodbye is near
gone the confusion
gone the endless fear
soon the conclusion
seventy aught years
ended in seclusion
all lost and forgotten
free from delusion
whole and unbroken
no more my dear

0200022018

Guilty Goodbyes

You weren't there
but I visited anyway
just a shell, silent
you sat and stared
aged stone, cold eyes
once my father
now just a shell
you'd gone deep
beyond all reach
these visits now
my guilty goodbyes

02001217

My Transition

Lost inside waiting
silent, and forgetting
the clock winds down
memories long gone
grown empty now
bring on my transition

01121996

Ready to go

I'm tired
I've grown old
faced my fears
over the years
shed many tears
laughs too
made memories
to lose with time
stories once told
are mysteries
the faces I behold
just strangers
sadly, I'm ready to go

02001017

Morning Dew

This can't be the end
oh, I've so much to do
dreams still on the shelf
love letters left to send
another morning dew
let me not lose myself
can't I be me again?

02000917

Empty Shell

I'm an empty shell
tossed about the shore
from the sea of memory
where I once lived
and dreamed of more
than days to fade away
with no stories left to tell

12140917

Pink Hair

Shocking pink hair
pairs so well with
green eyeshadow
and silly hats
and April Fools
bring back my youth
days before despair
and forgetfulness
when I was still... me

02151996

Selfless

The road to emptiness
is a long way from home
lost in its vastness
alone one just roams
confused and speechless
everyone unknown
slowly growing selfless....

02000817

Gone Blank

My nightmare
my truth now
a blank stare
empty inside
unploughed
memories
subside....
like me

12140817

In Slipping

Few are the days ahead...
Many are the forgotten,
all the more left behind...
Love my solace, in quiet,
I'm sustained in slipping

0200072117

Joys and Sins

I'm a magnet
drawing all in
building slowly
a personal universe
a symphony
finding purpose
a life of memories
that I'll forget
all my joys and sins

06041996

Flashes of Recognition

I smile inside
where I dwell
in small moments
though I'm still
years come and go
in wild flashes
of recognition

12030816

A little each day

My journey comes to an end
in silence, words forgotten
time undone a little each day
not a word said, nothing spoken
alone now, without a friend
failing memory took them away

12280816

At last

At last
I've put away
my past
so it matters not
all those things
I forgot

12040616

Something's wrong

I can't put my finger on it

My world obscured by clouds

Something's wrong I know

How many lost days I forget 

A stranger lost in a crowd

This is how my days now go

11570216

Until there's no me

Look for who you are
you've left yourself
laying about somewhere
this discomfort grows
as does my lostness
my disease of perplexity
ever expanding
taking me away
until there's no me
left to look for

04171991

Disassembled

The world's fragmented
there's no remembering
gone like broken glass
days scattered around
refracted colors everywhere
I'm disassembled now

04161991

Not equipped

Me, kind and gentle
has given way to fits
and violent outbursts
fueled by my rage
ending in tears
oh, so much lost
in my last few years
the forgetting hurts
the world so strange
nothing is the same
days hard to handle
when nothing is clear
for this I'm not equipped

12420216

My journey home

The soul sought the freedom it needed in my forgetting. Peeling away all that held me back, dark passages of sorrow and regret. Unbound now, I prepare for my journey home.

10171995

Vanished Somehow

I'm nothing now
not a was, nor will be
ether in a vacuum
a broken vow
a ship lost at sea
gone up in fumes
vanished somehow
along with my memory

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