So much to ask

I am trying so hard
to be courageous...
To build a life that
doesn't include you...
My loneliness is for
the everyday you...
I don't think of you
as some special conquest...
It was no intention of mine
I had loved you for so long
and I never meant it
to go that far...
but how do I turn back time
I want so to be your
friend again...
I miss talking with you
Just looking at you
when you didn't realize...
It's so hard
not being able to see you
Is that so much
to ask?...

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