Found Guilty

Because I have lost faith
in my own judgement
love and desire after all
had conquered them once
and I defended them
in blindness
for to say truthfully
I was wrong
was to shame my own instincts

Was it love or pity
that brought us to each other
or was it in need alone?

This somehow in time
has become irrelevant
it is in emerging
from my cocoon of self-doubt
that the real fear lies
in reaching out
the longing to care for someone
is a need I cannot admit

I have damned myself
or circumstantial evidence
and found myself guilty
of a lack of judgement in loving
life is a return to meaning
rejecting participation
thus I reject myself

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