Now

I used to be drunk with your love
now I just drink...
You used to heat me with your warmth
now I just smoke...
You used to make me feel wanted
now I'm just empty..
I once was whole... untouched
now I'm just a shell...
I was good for you
now I'm just bad for myself
abusing what I am
trying to burn the fire you lit
out... douse the coals...
nothing smoldering...
no candles to light the darkness
my self abuse ...
drives much deeper
than you ever could
although I must admit... you tried
I deny myself... to myself
doubtful of everything
especially... love

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