Numbness

What do I do
with my life
now that you're gone?
Nothing usually
keep numbness
enshrouding me
so I won't cry
from the pain...
my heart is suffering
from paralysis
all life is motionless
movements of nothingness
until I remember...
Oh God, then the pain
loneliness, desolation
hits like a sledgehammer
my guts keep
rolling over themselves...
remembering you
brings back tears
and I await
the blessed numbness
day.. after day... after day...

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