Too riddled to be fixed

I am determined to come out...
of this love affair... sane.  Although
the loneliness is terrible... and
I want to miss you so.
I've vowed not to call or...
see you again... I feel as
though I need to put patches
on my heart like an inner tube
filled with holes... sometimes
things are just too riddled...
to be fixed... like me... I don't
think I'll ever be whole again.

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