Once, vibrant and alive

I feel so tired and dull
it has been a long time
since you...
...Beautiful and loved
I felt wonderfully young
and vibrant and alive,
just being near you.
It's been like a long...
silence, and slow degeneration
of my spirit since I can
no longer be with you...
Independence can be the
loneliest form of self exile
there is... I would love
to be able to lean on someone
...But I'm too scared to
give anyone that much
leverage over me...
But somehow I didn't know
how much I was missing
until you came along to
show me the difference
I would have given the
world to you... If I could.

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