I'm trying

I am utterly broken, and yet
I can't face the truth of it
...that you don't want to see me
ever again...
I could not bare my heart...
if I didn't feel that somehow
it will help me to understand.
I want to blame myself...
what did I do wrong...if
I did things differently...?
...Oh, Well...
Will I be able to remain open?
...To subject myself to further hurt?
I can only say...
...I'm trying

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