God heals you because he loves you child, seek the Lord and He grants you all that you ask and more. The blessings of the Lord are upon you. Do not worry how you fill your days but that you are at peace. Joy is yours in the flowers, the birds, and all of God's creations.
God is giving you the vision to see what others take for granted. Time itself is not wasted for time is irrelevant in the moment, this is God's gift, accept it in gratitude, soon enough you'll long for this peace, for your hours will be filled, you are not idle, you are doing God's interior work.
He wants you to spread the word that he lives through us when we seek him. When we are called to action we must be prepared to go at once. There is no turning back once the path has begun. May we not be blind and deaf to our calling, and the gifts God has given us.